As you all know I have been having some problems lately. Because I write from my heart, it makes sense that when that heart takes a battering, my writing goes down the toilet. And this is what has happened with Book 6 of the Cloverleah Pack – Fae For All. I sat down to write again today, but before I added a single word, I went back and reread what I had done so far. It’s something I do most days, so that in itself wasn’t unusual.
What was unusual was that I didn’t feel that spark -that little zing inside of me that let me know my characters were on the right track, that the story had fire and passion and the sweet love that pervades all of my books. It was….wrong. Jax was snarling at me (and yes that is a hot picture in my mind but it wasn’t what I was looking for). Aelfric and Fafnir were just plain pissed off, and the other men in Cloverleah were standing around looking at me as if to say “What the hell were you thinking?” – in other words the story wasn’t working.
I had a similar problem when I wrote Calming the Enforcer (Book 4). I had just found out my marriage was over, and no matter how hard I tried to push through it, I still get people emailing me today and letting me know that Troy and Anton’s story really wasn’t my best work. And I can’t blame them, because it wasn’t. It was an okay story. The two men had problems, they eventually got it sorted, but even now when I reread it, I cringe in places. That story had the potential to be so much more and I was too wrapped up in the real world to see it at the time.
My readers are really important to me – really, really, really important to me, and I don’t do any one of you any favors by putting out books that are not 100% the best I can do on the day. So Fae For All is going under the delete key and I am going to start again – with a lighter heart, a more positive frame of mind and this time reflecting the love I have for these characters, instead of the crap that is wallowing around in my personal life.
The book may be delayed a little bit. Some people might get upset about that and say that my books aren’t worth the wait. But when Fae For All is finished (and it will be), I want my readers to know that it is the best story I could ever come up with for three awesome characters who deserve all the love I do still have inside. Just like you do.
Have an awesome day 🙂